Sunday, August 23, 2009
No se como empesar
solo se que quiero hablar.
Nunca sucede de este manera
Siempre tengo que batallar
Ahora ni tengo palabras.
For those of you who do not speak Spanish, here's a crappy non-rhyming translation:
I don't know how to begin
I just know that I want to speak
It never happens this way
I always have to put up a fight
Today I don't even have words.
That's pretty much it. It sounds better in Spanish. Sorry, I'm too lazy to translate it with prettier language, but at least my translation is correct. I hate incorrect translations when I'm watching movies in Spanish with subtitles. It's really annoying.
But what was my point? Ah yes...I'm speechless. The world manages to show another side of it's ugliness to me and I wish I could turn the other cheek. However, there's no escaping reality and there's no way to make it any better now. It's the kind of thing that when you find out how absolutely disgusting the truth is, you want to try to deny it and go back to the lies that were once so comfortable to accept.
I'm writing gibberish. I would explain it to you, but it's too personal and so depressing/infuriating that I had a lump in my throat (out of anger) when I heard. Basically, my family is a huge disappointment and there's one person in particular to blame for it all. I miss the simple days when I sat at the kid table for family get-togethers and didn't have to know family secrets.